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document as much as possible: a morning reverie

March 22nd, 2015 (06:52 am)

I am curious about the world at this age. I feel I know a lot and a little at the same time. What I do know is my own feelings and my own perspective. When I was little, we went on a field trip to the University of Arizona, as every Tucson-child did. The only thing I remember was seeing this window - of a classroom in the basement - i saw him and he saw me …….. it was Spring and the windows were open - and this grown up man had a soda at his desk. He was allowed to drink soda in class! It was freedom to me, and I couldn't wait to get to college to drink sodas in class.

I miss college. I had a particularly lovely bunch of people I had the pleasure of making movies with. As I suspected, we've all moved on with our lives…each as different as we were back then. We were really a hodgepodge of characters… i wish we could reunite.

But back when i saw that grown-up drinking his freedom soda in class, I thought to myself, when I'm a grown-up, tall, leggy with boobs (none happened), I'm going to do so much, I have all those childhood fuzzy foresight of the future. I pictured myself differently. And now, I miss the freedom of being the little girl walking with her class, dreaming of a bubbly future. To have that kind of clarity again.


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root canal

August 25th, 2014 (01:51 pm)

current mood: scared

I am not lonely, but feeling alone. how is there a difference.




I am waiting to get a root canal done. my vague understanding is that they remove the nerve in the tooth so it feels nothing.

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I am still 30

August 23rd, 2014 (12:00 pm)

current mood: drained
current song: charlixcx

working till 300. getting a little bonus for working...I AM TIRED. don't want to be an adult anymore! I hate money.

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dearest livejournal

September 21st, 2013 (04:18 pm)
current song: lana del rey-raise me up

dearest livejournal
I've missed you.
working 10 hours a day+ wrapping cables, production job, it's good for me, keeps me occupied, but my head is in a cloud, one cloud, my heart is a little squished, stomach on empty, not sure, feel hope feel sad, confuse, me,
they use me
blows a fuse
abuse you myself

late bloomer, old soul. [userpic]


March 27th, 2013 (08:49 am)

current mood: artistic

Photo on 2013-03-27 at 08.36 #2 these cups were from Whataburger...Nickel coffee cups. Yah, .05 for a cup o' joe.

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